When I Grow Up

I want to do this....

Mercy Ships looks like an amazing program, they even have a school on board.  How cool would that be for our kids?  Madeline is ready to pack her bags.  Slow down sweetie, I have a lot to learn before the will let me anywhere near their patients.  

My training ground will be the large university hospital in our area.  I just accepted a position on a cardiac unit.  This is the job I have dreamed about, but never imagined I would get.  I start in a few weeks.

I'm excited and nervous to begin my career.  I have a mixture of positive and negative thoughts swimming through my head.

How will this impact my family?

Can I really manage everything I have on my plate?

Am I being selfish?

Will our kids be uneducated dummies?

(OK, mostly it's negative)

If I listen to these thoughts, will I be limiting what I can do with my life?  Will I be limiting what God has planned for my life?

So far I feel that He has been equipping us to handle everything He has asked us to do, from home education, to adoption, and nursing school.  Things have fallen into place too neatly, much more neatly than we could have done on our own.  I know it is God.  Who am I to argue with God?  I still feel strongly that he will use my nursing skills for His benefit in some capacity that has just not been revealed yet.

So for now I am going to continue to say "yes," and trust that God will give us the strength and wisdom to achieve a successful balance.  That's not to say that I still won't drive my family crazy with voicing my doubts, and my lack of self confidence.  I will continue to question our choices, even though I know I should just trust.   Sorry, it's just the way I roll.

Remember this - a farmer who plants only a few seeds will get a small crop.  But the one who plants generously will get a generous crop.                                                                      
                                                                   -2 Corinthians 9:6